We find ourselves endlessly searching for the balance, forgetting that stability is only found in Him.
“But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.” -Mattheww 6:33
I’m one of the least coordinated humans on the face of this earth we’re living on. To prove my claim, as I’m writing this I’m actually shifting all my weight on to my right foot due to the heel I snapped on my new boots. I knew the heel was broken when I put them on earlier today; I still wore them. No worries.
I’m rocking them.
Anyway, I’m super clumsy; I pretty much trip over everything. You know the system in our body that is suppose to give us balance? Yeah, mines pretty off. To be totally honest.. that’s how I feel in my spirit a lot.
I remember when I was 8 and I loved having sleepovers with my friends, especially on Saturday nights that led to me missing Sunday morning service. I also remember pretending to be sick on Sunday night services so I wouldn’t miss the new episodes of Zoey 101. I remember seeing the girls my age at church with microphones in their hand. I remember going home afterwards and kneeling at my bedside telling God I’m too shy I’ll do it next time.
I remember when I was 13 and I cared so much about what my friends thought of me but yet I also cared so much about what Jesus thought about me. All I wanted was to be liked but I also so desperately wanted to please Him.
I remember when I was 16 and I was dating a new guy and always wanted to be with Him. Then there was my friends that I was trying to spend time with as well, on top of school, drivers ed, and trying to get alone with God.
I remember when I was an almost 20 something, juggling work and bills; trying to make rent. Giving my best efforts to pour myself into my friends, family, my man, and the church. In between early morning alarms and late night drives; trying my best to discover who I am and who God wants me to be–
Oh wait, that’s who I am now?
My point is whether you’re 8 or an unstable 20 something or maybe you’re dwelling in places I haven’t stopped at yet, places of parenthood, hospital stays, car trouble, and mortgage. Wherever you are right now in life, I’m sure you know all too well that feeling of trying to juggle all the aspects of your life; sorting out your priorities, getting life in order.
Many times in my life I’ve strained myself trying to find the balance. Every time I was left with an ever-sticking residue, wracking my thoughts; just what is the balance??
“We find ourselves endlessly searching for the balance forgetting that stability is only found in Him.”
How are we suppose to manage our personal life, family life, love life, work life, church life, and give our life to God all at the same time? For a long time, this battle broke me. I tried my hardest to give my everything to well.. everything, and everyone. I was left feeling like a failure.
My friends felt neglected. I could never spend enough time with my family. I always felt I was pouring more money out then what was coming in. I struggled to ensure I was finding my happiness with God and not my relationship. I felt no matter what I poured into the church, it was never enough.
I kept seeking after this balance, this place I figured I needed to get to, where I would be able to spend just enough time with everything and everyone in my life. well. newsflash to the old me- that place does not exist!
After years of doing this, I found out I was seeking after the wrong thing. I was searching for the balance but over time I realized that i should’ve been seeking the One who gives us balance.
Jesus.
Jesus is the balance.
Instead of trying to pour yourself into every area of your life I found that when we pour all of ourself into Jesus first everything else falls into place.
Now hold on–
I don’t mean everything will be perfect but everything will be right. The bible tells us to seek Him first and then all these things will be added to us. So I encourage you to stop worrying about everything and stretching yourself thin and seek after good balance in your life. As long as we are pursuing Jesus first in our life, out of a pure heart, He will nurture the rest.
Jesus is the balance, stick with Him and you’ll never have to worry about stability.